ABOUT ME:
- I am separated from my husband.
- I have 3 beautiful children (all with my husband).
- I am 31 years old.
WHAT I LIKE:
- I love hiking and playing games, board games that is, or family card games.
- I love spending time with my family.
- I enjoy working with my hands, anything creative or building things!
- I love talking about God and the scriptures.
WHAT I’M MADE FROM:
- I was raised Seventh Day Adventist.
- My grandmother constantly told me and my family that we were going to hell for various reasons.
- I was sexually abused as a young child.
- I was 11 when my parents divorced.
- I cared for my younger sibling for 3-4 years when I was about 11 or so and hated my sibling for it. Then I realized my sibling was my sibling and I couldn’t spend the rest of my life hating my sibling.
- I was promiscuous in my teens.
- I turned my back on God for about 10 years until after college.
- I’m a college graduate.
- I returned to God, confessed my sins and have been forgiven and have been faithful to Him.
- I was baptised into a plains group, called the Old German Baptist Brethren Church. This church is undergoing a division and now I don’t have a church home just yet.
- I cared for my grandparents in their old age for 2 years as their primary care giver.
- I had accepted Christ in my heart then committed fornication and had my first child before marrying my husband. I have repented of this sin of fornication with my husband and now live in the forgiveness and mercy of God.
- I have dealt with my older sibling’s addiction to drugs for the past 15 years.
I say these things, so that if there is anyone out there that feels all alone for whatever reason, I have had my share of hard times and experiences. I can understand many things, but not all things. I hope that you will see that I just want to help. May God bless you and encourage you.
Hello,
Wonderful blog…I came across it looking for matrerial about Psalm 37 which is perhaps my favorite scripture.
Your comments about yourself are very “touching” and impressive….very inspirational.
I am male and much older than you, but share many of the same experiences. Keep me in prayer and I will do the same for you. Thank you!!
Tim
Thank you Tim. Though my blog is more geared toward women, I know that men can glean something from it as well. I appreciate your comment and I will keep you in prayer.
Pain and suffering has no “gender”.
Thank you Lord Jesus for taking those things upon You, that we who come to You, may well endure.
Love in Christ Jesus
Jake
I have recently found this website and sofar I love it. I look on here often during my spare time in class. Your interpretaions of the scriptures is a real blessing and very easy to understand, it has helped me alot.
God bless,
Methos ( not real name)
Thanks Methos. I really needed your encouragemant today! God knows who needs what, when they need it and I am greatful that the Lord has been able to use me to help you and the many others that don’t want to post a comment. Thank you and God bless you as you continue to look through this site. May you hear the voice of the Lord and know that I strive to do His will, but sometimes fail. May He touch your heart.
Blessings!
Hello,
I really appreciate your blog. It’s very useful for me.
I am just University student from Thailand. Whenever i read your blog, i get encouragemant and i feel getting closer to God. May God bless you and your family.
Thanks,
HKun
Hi,
I stumbled onto your blog looking for the death of Lazerus.
Yes, I must agree with Methos – God has gifted you with a wonderful way of interpreting scripture and bridging the gap between that generation and touching our generation.
I am from Cape Town South Africa.
Thank you for sharing your life with us.
God Bless
Lazerus
Thanks Rene. I feel that I need to start writing again…the time has come even if my marriage hasn’t worked all of its problems out yet…God has given me much to think about in these past two months leading up to the birth of my third child and the time since then. Praise Him!
I LIKE THIS GRAIN OF FAITH I WAS RAISED CATHOLIC WITH SEVENTHDAY ADVENT NEIGBORS WHERE I SPENT ALL MY TIME I MARRIED A SEVENTH DAY A. WE WERE RAISED STRICT CATHOLIC I M NO RELIGION NOW IVE BEEN STUDYING FOR A LONG TIME. I WAS BAMBOOZELPED ALL MY LIFE. WHEN ALLMY FAMILY STARTED DIEING I NEEDED TO FIND SOME TRUTHS.AM STILL TRYING TO GET EVERYTHING FIGURED OUT
Great blog! I too was molested and the anger has carried over to my adult life. How did you get past it? How can I start trusting people to keep my children? I can’t shelter them for life. Thanks for making a difference with your blog.
Madona, I can’t say that I am fully over it. I don’t know if I ever will be. but I get through life one day at a time. On the hardest days or in my roughest hours, I try to remember my favorite psalm, Psalm 139. In this psalm, God has promised that He not only knew everything that would happen to me, but that He would be there for me for every second of every day of my life, whether I realize it or not.
To tell you the truth, I’m really struggling at this time in my life, with everything, including my faith. Doubts plague me constantly. If I were to give in to my emotions, I’d be through with God and everything good. But, God thankfully is keeping me from destroying my life, yet again.
Thank you for your encouragement about my blog. I’m having a hard time writing right now and it has a lot to do with my doubts. Thank you for reminding me what I should cling to and what I should forgive and forget.
God bless you Madona and your children.
I found your site while looking up info on “laying down our lives”. After reading thru your blog, I see we have some things in common, and decided to share with you my web site:
http://www.damagedtotrophy.com
Blog: http://www.damagedtotrophy.typepad.com/
Keep up the good work!
Pamela
Hello and thank-you so much for the encouragement your words have brought to me. Sometimes I feel such times of inner pitty and distress, and I feel as though I am the only one. But I am not, I am not. There are many who still seek God, many who yearn to do His will… but I guess that because we are human, we don’t always do such a good job and I think God knows that. He says in his word that He’ll give us the stregth to endure through whatever things come our way through life and He says ‘we’ll face them together.’ Thank-you Jesus. and thank-you for being who you are, your openess is so beautiful and I thank-you and everyone else that I could be encouraged by reading your declarations of faith, that you are all trying to ‘lead a life worthy of the highest calling you have recieved of God.’ (eph.4:1) And I think that really makes God happy!!!
I was blessed to find this site today. I lift you up in prayer as you cope with your struggles.
One of my favorite quotes is, “He never said it would be easy, He just said that He would be there.” (I have no idea of the author)
Remember the Prodigal Son. God’s love for us is undying. We can leave His side but He will still be there, loving us as always. Run to His arms.
I have made Him cry. I strive to make Him smile. He has given me everything. His plans for me are so much greater than any i can make for myself. I rejoice in the knowledge that I have a loving Father who will never leave me nor forsake me. How can I do otherwise to Him?
May the Lord be with you.
Thanks Peggy for your words of encouragement and your openness.
May the Lord be also with you.
Hey, I already read that this was mostly a women’s site, Oh well. Anyways. I find it really interesting that you just come right out and share your life. Like in 13 sentences you gave a basic jist of your life. Alot of the stuff i can relate with, so i def know what its like. I just want to thank you for just being up front and honest with people and just encourage you to continue writing, and just sharing your heart of worship.
Hi Matt, thanks for stopping by. Yes, it is mostly for women, since I can relate to them better, but I have had my share of men leave replies too. With the first male response, I realized that even men could glean from my words, not because I am that good, but because God is great and He can and does use anyone that is willing to work for Him to reach anyone he chooses. I just read through my ‘about me’ page and realize that I have to update it… Thanks for posting on it so I could be reminded to update it.
Please hold on to your faith. My marriage was tested in many ways over the past decade including separation but Our God is faithful. Yet I learned through it all, it is not until you let go of trying to save the marriage and ’save yoruself’ will God’s will be done. Work on yourself during this time and let God really know that whether your marriage endures or not, you WILL. That you will serve Him and Praise Him and Bless His Holy name. I can also relate to much in your upbringing and know those scars will always be with you. God has not promised to ’spare’ us from pain and tribulations and trials but he has promised to go through them with us and to NEVER leave us alone.
May our heavenly father richly bless you and may his grace abound unto you and yours forever more, ever increasing in faith. Amen.
Thank you Deano! I have seen and believed in the wisdom of your encouraging words. Sometimes I doubt and other times I live in full belief, but make no mistake, I recognize the truth with what you say.
In these past few weeks, I have recognized major changes in both myself and my husband. God is working, even when we don’t recognize it! Thank You Jesus for Your everlasting care for our hearts, minds and souls.
Thank you and many blessings Deano.
Thank you for taking the time to post here. I’ve saved this site to my favorites and will check back frequently to see if there’s something new you’ve written.
I can’t tell you how blessed I am by this.
Are you still separated from your husband?
Thank you again for this site. I will pray for you, and hope to learn your name.
PJ, You have made me smile! Thank you for taking the time to read some of my posts and my about me page…I will say that I don’t always have the most upbeat, optimistic posts, but I don’t hide much of anything…except my name and the names of people close to me (for safety’s sake). Yes, we are still separated, but God is working in both of our lives and who knows…maybe we’ll be able to live together again in the future?
Blessings to you, and I’m humbled that God used me to help you.
Hey GOF,
I haven’t forgotten about you and you are in my prayers.
I came across this song today and really thought of you. Just for background Marvin Winans is a Pastor of a rather large church in the Detroit area that he and his wife co-pastored.
His wife left him in a rather public break up. He continues to pastor alone. This song is from his new album, “Alone But Not Alone.”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8ySUNH4pug
I pray it blesses you.
Deano
Yours In Christ Our Lord